What happened???

Hi. Many must be wondering about what happened to Dream Dates... oh well, was so coped up at work that I've neglected dreaming and dating... "duh"... ha ha ha... but it's kinda ironically true... many people are so coped up with things that don't really matter that they neglect what really matters... hmmm...

Oh well, what to do... for the moment, this blog will just have to be a journal of my journey through crossroads to heaven... which by itself is pretty true... as we walk along the pathway to heaven, there are many crossroads that we have to come to where we make important decisions and distinction in our life that has eternal consequences... heard recently "what you are today is a result of your decisions yesterday, what you are tomorrow is a result of your decisions today"

Heard from a friend recently... "to love is to be willing to hurt but to love as if you were not hurt"... i was like "wow, how true is that"... and taking a step back to think and reflect, it is so true in life that the extent to which we are willing to love is almost equivalent to the willingness to take risk to be hurt... many times the more we love, the more vulnerable we are to be hurt by the same person that we love...

So true ah... was reflecting on my life and realised that so many times I tried to open up my heart to show love to family and friends, and so many times end up getting hurt by the same people I try to love... either by the things they do or the things they fail to do... guess that's why Jesus shared the story of the sower and seeds... have to manage my expectations on some people in my life and sow seeds wisely... seeds of eternal friendship...

Sigh... recently was trying to be a blessing to a friend but was so surprised that the person actually misunderstood... man did I feel hurt... was really telling myself that this is a good person to be friends with... should bless as much as I can... do the best I can to help the person succeed in life and be a "Jonathan"... sigh... God, why?

But looking back at our Saviour, it is so true when we look at Jesus... He took a big risk when He chose to love all man and when He did love all man, still there were so many people who rejected Him as Lord and Saviour... kinda realised to a little extent how He felt when people rejects His gifts, grace and goodness...

But end state, what should we do? Stop loving? Stop blessing? Start to brood bitterness? Start to mistrust people because of hurts and disappointments? Definitely not... the only right thing to do is continue to love at the risk of being hurt and to love as if we were not hurt. If to love is to risk being hurt, then call me a daredevil to try to love again as if I'm not hurt.